the resurrection in rubbish

Philippians 3:7-11
"But what things were gain to me, these I have counted loss for Christ. Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ
and be found in Him, not having my own righteousness, which is from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which is from God by faith.
That I may know Him and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of sufferings, being conformed to His death, if by any means I may attain to the resurrection from the dead."

I never have a plan for how to share what I've been meditating on. So you, like me, never know what is going to pop out. There's so many different things I could focus on, like the real power of resurrection, or the excellence of the knowledge of God..really, it's hard to nail it down on this one. But mostly as I've been thinking on these verses this week I'm intrigued by the resurrection in rubbish. And by that I mean the resurrection to real life in Christ when we say all of our own goodness, righteousness, and all of the status, ambition, knowledge, and even good things are rubbish. (I think rubbish sounds very European, so I'm sticking with the word) Paul is saying we have to count them as that to gain Christ. (really? ouch) To loose our life is to find it so to speak.
Guess what...? I don't believe this.
I mean, I want to of course, but I'm not there yet. (Paul goes on to say he doesn't either in verse 12...whew)

I'll share a little of my heart on this virtual page and say I've been struggling with dissatisfaction lately. I haven't been satisfied in much of anything. Definitely in my job. And I haven't been nearly as satisfied as I ought to be in my friendships. Tea is good but it doesn't stay hot. My dog is nice but she licks too much. Iceland was good but now it's over. Entertainment. Down time. Up time. Sleeping time. Laughing times...You get the point...And as I have struggled with my dissatisfaction I've come to realize that I am just in this place because God put me here. I think in it He's been gripping me with the reality that there really is a heaven and we really are made to be with Him in His presence. But how do your find life when your dissatisfied by it? Or as you decide healthily like Paul that you count it as loss? How is it true that when we loose it we find it? How do you live when all you want to do is be with Him? That really those song lyrics that say "nothing else satisfies" are really true. It's real: I (we) don't belong here.
And another question: what do I do? What do I do when it's just me and Him? What do I do in the waiting? In the life that happens every day? Do I just wait with some sort of ambivalence? What do I do with this deep dissatisfaction???
Well, today as I was thinking about my longing for heaven Paul smacked me a bit and answered the question. There's a lot, actually, of really practical stuff that he says so I'll skim it a bit:
Phil 4:4 - Rejoice always!
4:5 - Let your gentleness be known to all people because God is coming!
4:6 - Don't be anxious, but pray with thanksgiving and let your requests be known to God.
4:7 - let the peace of God that passes your little bit of understanding guard and guide your heart and mind
4:8 - the biggie...meditate on the true, noble, just, pure, lovely, good things.
So that helps... God for me and for those out there like me that are saying "COME!", help us as we lay ahold of You to reach forward for the resurrection. Help us to rejoice! Help us to meditate on the good and to grab your heart in it. Help us to wait not in anxiousness, but in connection to you with thanksgiving in our hearts. You are truly good, you are truly coming back, and we are truly made for You.